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The Prince's Heart

by Fanaticus

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1.
Work Out 02:55
Man the shit's been bent, thinking to myself how I'm going to pay rent When the pay check's spent on weed that's meant To get me lifted, shit it's back to business See, I'm trying to get my mind right So I gotta go ghost riding like the dark knight Always ready for the fight one day it'll end Bet I'll need two cents wondering what's next I'm undecided Thinking to myself who I'm a go ride with Till the time comes I shouldn't worry 'bout it Because the universe always has its ways To make my day, to make things great So I light this joint and I find my way 'Cause somewhere in the air there's a place for me And you know I'm there, peace It'll work out, gotta have faith everything will work out Gotta have faith that it won't go south I been working hard trying to make it all count I been trying to make sure everything will work out If you ain't know then, well shit you know now That everything around us will work out, everything around us it'll work out, hey And i'm looking in the mirror, a clearer version of who I should be Man I'm having night terrors, whether or not that an omen, shit we'll see If you really got the time, go and find everything that you know you'll need It's really crazy lately everything is really how it should just be Or maybe I am reading into things too deep Or maybe everything is never really what it seems I been running circles, jumping hurdles, Stephen Urkle is the level I've been at it I been on it for weeks Experimenting on another level but the death is a rebel trying to bring me to the bottomless seat But I know I'm at a higher peak, so I'm a go seek And find a piece of what I really do need, my peace It'll work out, gotta have faith everything will work out Gotta have faith that it won't go south I been working hard trying to make it all count I been trying to make sure everything will work out If you ain't know then, well shit you know now That everything around us will work out, everything around us it'll work out, hey
2.
Dear B 02:35
Sittin' here trying to write a song about you Texting you like we was back in high school Playing with my mind I'm feeling vocal When you get your nail's done, paint 'em purple Purple haze for the days I ain't with you Rainy days make me crave for your touch you make me quiver So insane how the fame make you wanna go deliver History enough to make a boil out of simmers Chose a winner every time them hips swing, left a nigga shook Back in second grade, you would challenge me to read them books All this reminiscing got me feeling like I'm on a hook Girl you so dope, made me change my outlook I should've fell in love with B Used to always say that she could read them books faster than me She damn near read the whole library I shouldn't have had that long island iced tea Because i'm thinking I should call you 'cause i'm feeling tipsy I should've fell in love with B When she had that nose ring Back in 9th grade, when we'd talk all through history Now we feeling ourselves, shouldn't have had the hennessy 'Cause I wanna get you home and get you in between my sheets, yeah Sittin' here trying to make a riff on this guitar Knowing I'm no player, so I ain't getting far Thinking I could woo you if I play a part Knowing already you looking at me like a star They tell me keep your heart three stacks, keep your heart Man, these girls is smart three stacks, these girls is smart Society been telling me celibacy ain't a start Love and lust has got me feeling like I need to bark I'm a dog, well trained to make my thoughts art Ableton my station I'm making a flow chart Patient for your face to be blessing me, don't depart Arriving with some tension and passion it's from the heart, it's from the heart I should've fell in love with B Used to always say that she could read them books faster than me She damn near read the whole library I shouldn't have had that long island iced tea Because i'm thinking I should call you 'cause i'm feeling tipsy I should've fell in love with B When she had that nose ring Back in 9th grade, when we'd talk all through history Now we feeling ourselves, shouldn't have had the hennessy 'Cause I wanna get you home and get you in between my sheets, yeah
3.
Mars (Life) 03:22
uh, uh, Jamil on the beat, aye So let me paint a picture, another civil sinner Indulge in greed and laziness I never was descriptive Or maybe I was lying, to keep myself in hiding I fear the demons in my life I hope I never find them Designed to realize when, the beat is steady vibing I keep a groove in my pocket, I got the bass wylin' Make space for the time and place, where you gravitate Don't waste, steady (Levitate) and keep your ego, don't inflate I struggled with the music, I was living clueless Shit I remember back in summer 2013 On my own, so free Trying to be a Young King Bumping "Anything in Return" inside a Camry I fleed to the city, I'm hoping someone hears me Maybe rap into a megaphone so you can hear me While you're busy filming all these memories Please just promise me, you won't live your life through a screen Said what you'll find, ain't out of line Just remember time, ain't on your side You gotta see all the mountains, climb so high You gotta see Frank Ocean with the flashing lights Yeah this world, is full of life Shit, I used to dream about you Had dreams at night that had you, my queen I'm grateful for the time without you Unrequited love a bitch and that's a shame Everything I learned in turn I used to save me Aiming, shooting for the life I need I'm crazy Saying things, show me what you need and that you're changing Lately, I ain't been the same I graduated college but I'm still making minimum wage Said I ain't blaming the economy Shit I ain't got it figured out yet I been waiting But what's this waiting gonna do for me I gotta get up off my ass, fulfill the prophecy See life is honestly a balance of duality I'm trippin' this reality is filled with Trump's fallacies Casually teaching racism and fear This world will be better if you just disappear, for real Said what you'll find, ain't out of line Just remember time, ain't on your side You gotta see all the mountains, climb so high You gotta see Frank Ocean with the flashing lights Yeah this world, is full of life Said what you'll find, ain't out of line Just remember time, ain't on your side You gotta see all the mountains, climb so high You gotta see Frank Ocean with the flashing lights Yeah this world, is full of life
4.
Over It 03:20
Started from this nothing then we grew to something Hoping what I'm feeling leads to growing substance Momma always had me hold the door wide open No matter who was coming courtesy returning I was learning Chivalry will show you you became a man Regardless if your father there or not, there was a plan Defend the patriarchy all I knew back then Went and saw some more and then I changed my stance Show your hands, always wanted bands, want to go and dance Smoke a wood then hop up in the van, go and see the land Touring taking pictures with some fans, go play with the band Come back to reality you searching from a pizza pan Know one day that everything will change, cocking back I aim Farther than the stars and anything that you can see today Maybe saving pennies will come back to be a blessing aye Got a second call about my work I'm steeping out the rain I'm over all this pain, sunshine here to stay I won't be on my same shit, wandering Earth so aimless Hoping that somebody will come up and give me change Hoping that tomorrow don't seem so fain't, I'm over all this pain Sunshine here to stay, I won't be on my same shit, wandering Earth so aimless Hoping that somebody will come up and see the change Hoping that tomorrow don't seem so faint And now I'm wondering how I went from 17 to 23 Found Fanaticus when I was writing 'bout my dreams Everything had changed when I saw my big brother Cudi Said I'm from the 'Ville but Mr. Rager kept on walking Six years later wondering who I am I'm rapping on this stage like I'm the fucking man I hope the message still the same when I get settled in my lane I used to think I was a lame I need this Yin balance out this Yang Fuck that bullshit that you saying, free myself from all these chains I'll cut my baggage loose Then I became a different mane (Shout out Terrance Howard) I'm over all this pain, sunshine here to stay I won't be on my same shit, wandering Earth so aimless Hoping that somebody will come up and give me change Hoping that tomorrow don't seem so fain't, I'm over all this pain Sunshine here to stay, I won't be on my same shit, wandering Earth so aimless Hoping that somebody will come up and see the change Hoping that tomorrow don't seem so faint And maybe I am just expecting too much out of people Maybe I am hoping that we all just treated equal Maybe I just want all my homies out living regal Maybe everything is simulated good and evil Maybe I am just expecting too much out of people Maybe I am hoping that we all just treated equal Maybe I just want all my homies out living regal Maybe everything is simulated good and evil
5.
It's something about flying up in the clouds It makes you forget about everything around It makes you forget about what's in the town With the calm and the cool in my seat, I'm bound To a destination, I guess I came with A broken heart that bleeds on pavement A battered soul, with a piece of patience I keep a book full of open pages An open mind, got to find the time To make the moves, don't wait in line Take what's yours, don't be waiting for signs The universe is yours, don't get left behind, I'm In a race to find, the meaning in the void combined The universe so vast it don't feel divine 'Cause we been on our own like we committed a crime A cosmic crime, now we behind these bars Isolated in a field of stars It's funny how we think we know who we are While the aliens be watching us from Mars, Yeah I'm trying to shine so big just like Alpha Centauri Come from the 'Ville not up the hill and no one else here before me I'm trying to make my name a living and I'm only getting started I'm trying to eat but all these gluttons got a nigga starving Defeat my demons with this sword just call me Finn man I'm on it An elemental hero heart I swear I'm just like a Martian I fell in love and she a Leo, shit I don't think she'll call me A flame princess 'cause emotion got you fired up shorty Ain't nobody going to take me down, shit I just want to wear that crown Trying to be deserving of the meaning I've found I'm a make this sound, go and play this out Yeah, go and play this out Trying to be a legend up against them crowds I'm a sing and shout 'till my lungs give out I ain't never headed south, finna get it I'm bound If you don't know my name, don't give me dap or pounds I been down and out too many times to count And that's word to Cudi, he led me off the ground A nigga been around, I ain't been Earth bound Stunting on my haters they won't face me now So complacent (wow) How you feel just bounce I'ma play this out, so let me sing it now How you feeling (Wow) Just ride and bounce, yeah I'm trying to shine so big just like Alpha Centauri Come from the 'Ville not up the hill and no one else here before me I'm trying to make my name a living and I'm only getting started I'm trying to eat but all these gluttons got a nigga starving I'm trying to shine so big just like Alpha Centauri Come from the 'Ville not up the hill and no one else here before me I'm trying to make my name a living and I'm only getting started I'm trying to eat but all these gluttons got a nigga starving
6.
All Alone 02:13
And you left me all alone, all alone I just want to take you home, take you home, I want to hear your pretty voice instead of texting on the phone Girl you been my everything, this love is all I've ever known, yeah Something about the way your beauty leave the room inside a state Way you take the reins and go to say the things you need to say On a mission but I got a feeling you don't feel the same That you did when I met you way back in 12th grade Thinking about a (Place) Trying to be o-(kay) Watch adventure time or see the homies then we (bake) Used to call you (Baby) Now i'm going (Crazy) I just want you back inside my life am I in-(sane) And it ain't no fun when I run Tryna find you when you're gone, I wanna jump And I hope you don't think I'm always wanting some If I ain't got your love, then I'm always feeling numb And you left me all alone, all alone I just want to take you home, take you home, I want to know just how you're feeling when you're saying nothing wrong Girl you been my everything, this love is all I've ever known, yeah I used to write so many songs about you Until my cup was half full It's still the same ain't nothing changed I still write songs about you So many years without you How could I breathe without you I guess I'll learn I know it burns I know in time I'll be cool And I need you to love me better Like in April when we had Stormy weather When I used to drip the wax on your letters Wrote on the pages my love's forever And you left me all alone, all alone I just want to take you home, take you home, I want to know just how you're feeling when you're saying nothing wrong Girl you been my everything, this love is all I've ever known, yeah I'm feeling all alone, all alone Your love is all I've known, all I've known Your love is all I've known, all I've known And now I'm all alone, all alone
7.
Seasons 03:19
Homies faker than their cover They act like they're your brother Talking all that shit, better stay above water Focused on the road that's upon us, 'cause Summer coming up quick, you read me wrong if you trying to hit a lick I'm in too deep, I ain't ever gonna quit I need that OG, yeah you know it's my fix, yeah Okay I'm feeling like I need another drop In the city all I see is cops I just wanna make it to the top See me in your city and you know we finna rock I just wanna go, I don't really want to stop And I'm finna go in, like I'm finna beat box Calling me the MC, girl you trying to P-Pop And I'ma mark you up, like I'm tagging on the block (Say you not) What's the difference if I wasn't wishing that I had all these girls in my visions Thought that mission of this vision was to make a change, or some shit then When you young and dumb with no voice, a microphone seem like a dope choice But there ain't no food on my plate, don't wait for the shit you want, you gotta take it I'm aimed with consciousness I got this knowledge, call it prowess Got complacent in my head, tripped out once then I had an ego death Maybe all my secrets kept became some trauma, then I wept Got some stories and some beats, I'll mic it up then write my speech, aye Homies faker than their cover They act like they're your brother Talking all that shit, better stay above water Focused on the road that's upon us, 'cause Summer coming up quick, you read me wrong if you trying to hit a lick I'm in too deep, I ain't ever gonna quit I need that OG, yeah you know it's my fix, yeah Yeah we so focused on this potion, I been hoping that this won't end Medicate my fate, I knew me better than you did, as of late I ain't finna hit your phone with a complaint, know it ain't what you say it's how you say it I'm feeling better than I did in the basement No front plates on the car while I'm faded I need two O's in my life, scratch that three O's in my life Fuck that, Q-P still light, ain't flipping I'm just trying to take flight Two blunts won't do, it ain't right Trying to grow like a chia when I write Lightbulb idea shine bright Know that I ain't going without a fight Yeah they try to find a way to separate us from our fate But the universe will tell you if you're ready for the day Steady training every morning for the work Writing all these fucking lines, trying to think of what to say Deja Vu, I had a dream about this day Finishing the verse with some finesse for all the fakes Got another message from them haters in the back Fuck you, Pay me, bring the shit back nigga Homies faker than their cover They act like they're your brother Talking all that shit, better stay above water Focused on the road that's upon us, 'cause Summer coming up quick, you read me wrong if you trying to hit a lick I'm in too deep, I ain't ever gonna quit I need that OG, yeah you know it's my fix, yeah
8.
It's been a minute I been way below ground I been trying to better for you, but all I've found Is that you say you will, oh you say you will Then again I made a promise to be better for real I been working so hard, I've been trying to make steel, so what's the deal Normally I'm never caught up in my feelings But things been hard and my heart's been spilling With the glass half full, but you say it's half empty Laying in my bed, baby girl don't tempt me You know I put the work in even though I've been stressing But I can't hold on when you being so selfish I can't help this, anymore Every time you come around my heart drops to the floor You know you hurt me right down to the core And every time I want to leave I can't shut that door I never know what to do anymore You know I'm so sick of fighting this war And these feelings I can't ignore, so listen baby I need you to love me better I need you to love me better Why can't you just love me better Why can't you just love me better My life's changing, while you're complacent Other men running after my baby I guess what I had wasn't enough Compared to these niggas that are trying to fuck But I'm gone, I've been on Trying to find a better way to be strong And she's telling me she wants to be on Just like the old times, get the fuck on Yeah and I ain't messing with the bullshit Who the fuck are you with Telling me you love me but you know you out here choosing And I ain't ruthless, I ain't got to prove shit Treated you just like a queen and you knew this I was committed to you, and the music But now I'm done with you, I need some new shit I need somebody that'll be there if I lose it Onto better things now, I'm moving I'm moving on, but something's wrong and I can't be gone I don't know what it could be every time you're with me The world will stop turning, and I feel I know that everything Stops for a minute, and I'm wishing That the second time around will be different And I'm ready to restart if you're with it, but baby I need you to love me better I need you to love me better Why can't you just love me better Why can't you just love me better I need you to love me better I need you to love me better Why can't you just love me better Why can't you just love me better I need better I need better I need better I need better I need better I need better I need better I need better
9.
Shining 03:24
Just hold on tighter The moon gets brighter You'll shine like Michael But it doesn't matter okay Loathing from decisions that I've made within addiction All these pharmaceuticals, they say that something missing All my life mistaken, truth with eggs and bacon Mental illness killing sanity, I hear them singing Jimmy's got a gun, aye, Jimmy's got a gun, aye Don't let the police see you, they going to say he got a gun, aye Empty bullets on them like they're doing it for fun, aye, Real life C-O-D and it don't end 'cause no one won, aye Visions of my death is something I just really want to escape Keep them demons all away, burn them down then take a break Just hold on tighter The moon gets brighter You'll shine like Michael But it doesn't matter The pain keeps reaching I keep on singing The stars are shining That's where I'm climbing I got this feeling in my stomach that my doom is finna come in I'm boarding home at six in the morning, the sun is rising I'm crashing bumping Swimming, I'm just made I made a scene Ended up in the E-R, I was on that couch for some goddamn weeks And I couldn't sleep, it was in my dreams that I could've died, I just want to sleep If it keep me up what it all going to mean (if it keep me up what it all going to mean) If I crash and burn with they all goin' see (If I crash and burn will they all goin' see) But I know that life is just a lease, oh, oh Just hold on tighter The moon gets brighter You'll shine like Michael But it doesn't matter The pain keeps reaching I keep on singing The stars are shining That's where I'm climbing My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, okay My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, hold up My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, okay My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, hold up I just want to be free, I can't go back, I just need to leave 'Cause I know the pain keep killing me Man I can't keep up, I can hardly breathe, man I hope you see I just want to be free, I can't go back I just need to leave My heart go black, man it's six feet deep And I can't keep up, I can hardly breathe So what's the point in seeing when you're feeling everything you see Stay so temporary, hope you're hearing everything from me Drink this Hennessy with Perc's and lean I hope my heart it cease Bet nobody know the pain inside my brain, just need some peace, please My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, okay My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, hold up My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, okay My tragedy my masterpiece My tragedy my masterpiece, hold up
10.
Tell me all about your fantasies All about your life dreams It's in the stars after all, is what I would believe But life is hard, live through the loss A better day, a new way to take charge is here tomorrow So do you follow Okay I'm yearning for your touch I feel I'm burning like a crutch When a joint become some ashes, hope the roach don't burn my mattress Actress shit, I don't need one I'll drop you like them Seasons Them pics on Instagram depict a story but I'm feeling that there's more to the shutter between the lens and the mother-board All the time between us pictures only speak a thousand words I'm trying to hear a million stories 'bout the life I know you've earned Time has burned bridges but I'll build them up and then return Tell me all about your fantasies All about your life dreams It's in the stars after all, is what I would believe But life is hard, live through the loss A better day, a new way to take charge is here tomorrow So do you follow So do you follow Remember rainy days, you would come and stay Blessing me with faith, every night I pray that your love will pave Roads to the day vows will be exchanged Children run and play, never take away everything you gave me I'm wishing for a saving grace, I wonder if you pace Mind will steady race when I don't embrace you It got me feeling so blue, you used to be my soul food I used to think I knew you, but now I'm sure I've lost you I close my eyes sometimes and in my mind it all rewinds Remember all the times I'd never want to say goodbye I laid in your bed, fading in and out to your heartbeat I try to speak, but I'm lost inside affection that we seek Playing with my hair, subtly know you're still there Now I'm laying in bed, some years later wishing you'd still be here
11.
This some like, 2012 shit It's only right I could've dreamed I had the past back Running circles around the memories I had that I been wishing for some change, where it start at Got a vision of utopia I'm past that, I guess a flashback Will paint a picture that's so vivid, I'm a run laps Pace that, trying to get the feeling that I had back Don't lack, ready for whatever I'm a clap back Cash that token, I'm a grind 'cause I'm chosen I'm a star in the moment I'm a get it while I'm sipping on my potion I been ready ever since I been floating Blue dream spark a dream, shit I'm open Spark a blunt for inspiration that's the motion Eyes is heavy while it's written, what is spoken Got a feeling that you do this shit often, so what's it costing You better close the damn coffin I ain't in Boston, this ain't no tea party But we need a revolution and my service spotty The revolution will be televised and streamed shorty And you can't call me if the weather shotty Just come over, get the message started I ain't writing sober 'cause the pain be costing Come and see this office, say the world is flawless I ain't speaking for myself I need to hear your thoughts So what you on with I really knew that you the one, I was ready Counting from the days to the months we was steady Couldn't think about a life without you, sun setting Bullet in my brain, if you don't want me why you message Told myself I'd never love another in this world like you Goddamn, I should've knew I was a tool But hindsight 20/20 like that I'm finna keep going, even if I gotta cap, yeah I got to cap to live 'cause I ain't past the shit I'm finna face a Backwoods 'till I'm off the shits I need a bunch of fucking O's, make me paper rich Because my mind so sharp I was born for this You ever been equipped With some knowledge to spit You ever wonder about a life where you don't need a fix, shit I don't mind, we can share the spliff Contemplating 'bout the universe, a cosmic riff Split into the darkness, I'm so exhausted I planned a life around you when the sparks hit And now I'm thoughtless, if I'm being honest I smoke the pain away, the studio my office I'm finna off this, I keep my heart split 'Cause all you ever want to do is kill my dreams Chasing all these memories I wonder what it means So I'm coughing up the tar, trying to stop the bleed in me I really knew that you the one, I was ready Counting from the days to the months we was steady Couldn't think about a life without you, sun setting Bullet in my brain, if you don't want me why you message Told myself I'd never love another in this world like you Goddamn, I should've knew I was a tool But hindsight 20/20 like that I'm finna keep going, even if I gotta cap, yeah Overdosed all alone in my apartment Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and I pray my death be painless I'm sick of living aimless, help me I know that I can't breathe Because the pain of love is suffocating me I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me And now my heart it bleeds I took a year off to get right Disappeared in the summer, woke through the night R.I.P. Cam Rellim, hope you see the light I'm a show them all the Faces, yeah we finna fight We was kids, I was wishing for the best day ever Then I took some vitamins, it's Macadelic weather Blue slide park, got a heart you can't measure I been watching movies with the sound off for the pleasure Yeah I bet you better than the last time I'm finna kiss her good morning with the sunshine Wasn't laying in my bed, where the fuck am I Still dark, couldn't sleep, I just want to find A little peace another heaven, what's behind my eyes DMT it will release inside a dream of mine You appear I see it clear, but you leave me dry Got shot in the head waking up I cry, man fuck this Last night, dreamed I had the past back Had shorty in my arms, that's a flashback I need her right now, need a flash pass I'm hopping in the Porsche with the top back And every night I blow clouds hoping that I don't dream Got me at the Lord's door, I just really want to scream Let 'em know if he going to take me, let it be in my sleep Without your love it's pain when I breathe, free me please lord Overdosed all alone in my apartment Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and I pray my death be painless I'm sick of living aimless, help me I know that I can't breathe Because the pain of love is suffocating me I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me And now my heart it bleeds Bloody knuckles 'cause I'm feeling shit Too damn numb, why I ain't feeling shit Thinking 'bout hurting so I can feel some shit So lost, never thought 'bout feeling shit This aimless line I walk inside I do that on my own Constructive criticism's nice but advice is mostly just wrong This path is for me all alone, my own faults I must atone So I bleed it out with this ink, these faces I'm not recognizing I don't know this man in the mirror So stained so I'm trying to see it clearer Feeling negative (Three K) Next to Andre (Three K) So cold, typing this makes my fingers hurt Work, myself just needs the help Not trying to fall back in the trap But these demons always fighting me They always stay doing that Wanna just quit and take this nap, just smoke this J don't write no raps Disappear from everything, never make it back R.I.P. Chester, and Rest Easy Mac like Overdosed all alone in my apartment Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and I pray my death be painless I'm sick of living aimless, help me I know that I can't breathe Because the pain of love is suffocating me I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me And now my heart it bleeds
12.
4:00 AM 04:10
It's Four AM and I can't sleep My mind is busy I can't seem To clear my head of my issues So I can rest and continue My mission looking for virtue inside a world that's so hurtful How should I do it, I'm a keep moving Beyond the center of the lesson I'm hoping there's a blessing Nobody seems to be catching all of these messages sending To everybody, I'm sorry, no need to answer who's calling No need for iPhone's to see the galaxy I hope you're ready for everything inside of me To show you who I am, don't need a plan This life a weird game and I ain't trying to see the end So who are all your friends, they somebody who could go without you Or is there someone in your life who just can't live without you See I got questions, hoping that you could answer I wonder where we'll both be, a look inside the future the universe is waiting Waiting in line for my turn Go let the Backwood burn, I'm trying to talk it out Figuring what you all about I'm trying to see what you been doing since you all around You got a vision, truly something somebody's missing And you want change in the world, you know it's never given You working hard for the world to see your special mission Bring out the light inside of us, that's what we need I'm feeling You got this down, everything you need you bring it out And yeah, nobody brings you down sometimes, I know you're human But to me you're just a goddess in the making I'm saving myself for you, how could you defend the truth? Be the calling you needed when you was feeling defeated I'm trying to see what you bringing inside a world full of demons Everyone afraid of confrontation, so complacent of their status But little do they know this life is ours, we just need to grab it So go on, tell me what you see Go and paint a picture pretty please You feeling Picasso, what a treat Hold up, I'm just trying to catch the beat Lost on my own that's a feat, I'm trying to get on my feet I just be cautious of freaks, I'm trying to keep it discreet If you're feeling lost in the moment don't accept a defeat Hold onto the truth, don't ever lose focus Counting my days on my back, Kids these days have been hoping That our spaceship will take off, and no I ain't returning We all just trying to get up on that six figure earning But I'm shooting for seven, my nigga catch me I'm swerving Whipping a Tesla forever 'cause my future ain't certain Caught in a vibe one more time because I know it will keep me from hurting Fixing myself, better myself I think I'll need a permit I'm finna love on myself again like damn, you really deserve this
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I'm just really trying to figure it out Every step that I'm taking be full of doubt You in a rush to be heard through all the sound While everything feeling like you deep in the clouds, yeah Complacent with decisions you've made Are you happy now, or you finna take your fade It's okay if you ain't found a way Take your time and let go of the pain Eat some food and then take a break Drink some coffee sit back and thank Ride the motions, hope my love don't fade She can tell that my soul been trying to be saved, yeah I just really wanna be self made Bipolar got me feeling like a slave They be saying that my mind strong, but when I'm going through it, they don't care what's wrong So I'm rolling stoned, Shout out Rich Jones First joint that I smoked inside the blue room Yet I knew they ain't fuck with me But them sine waves make a beautiful symphony Hit them keys, it's true polyphony I'm just trying to find a way in simplicity Daydreaming 'bout a girl that's kissing me Until then, it's white wine while we hit them trees, yeah Said I keep trying, I keep trying, but I ain't getting far I took my time and did the steps so I can climb to the stars But it ain't worth it, still looking for a purpose too busy working, to explore the Earth so Say less, Say less I know the sky a roadmap, and the world my treasure chest So say less, oh, Say less, oh I know you reaching for it I'm just hoping you won't fall so say less You in a prison full of 'ism's that's America They treat your vision like they pissing in your area Give you the symptoms of a sickness they created, what And I been tripping, got so distant from the girl I want And I been traveling along the front Got a pack of kush, with the shells for the blunt Dylan tripping off the molly, he seeing stars while I'm falling Can't accept myself if I'm honest, ain't been the same since college I hit my head and could've lost my life Singing "What's the Use", but I'm here right now Let's celebrate, candles on the cake She finna throw me cakes, but I'm staying late Writing songs about a girl I want to lay with Woke up, four AM and we naked All my skills I've demonstrated, but the way I feel, yeah I know she fakes it Told her "Lie to me if you don't love me, I just need you now, girl keep me company" Said I keep trying, I keep trying, but I ain't getting far I took my time and did the steps so I can climb to the stars But it ain't worth it, still looking for a purpose too busy working, to explore the Earth so Say less, Say less I know the sky a roadmap, and the world my treasure chest So say less, oh, Say less, oh I know you reaching for it I'm just hoping you won't fall so say less
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Let me take you way back to the days When I rode my bike down Hickory Lane Got Dairymens tea with a dollar and some change Then banged on my drums for my teenage angst Got a lot of hate, 'cause I ain't the same Used to want to leave the Earth 'cause of all the pain Trying to tell myself that I wasn't to blame For the way I'm made, I found love in change I'm trying to be better than I was before I'm trying to be stronger, I'm a train of course Bucket list, trying to see a worldwide tour I gotta do my chores, I got to learn some more Ready if I'm steady I be shaking a lot When I'm nervous hope you know this and you take it to heart I been trying to build anew, guess I need a new start If you do your part, like I do my part then we're good Hey hey it's okay, all this pain is gonna fade Take your time and get your space I know one day you'll find your way Hey, Hey, it's okay, show the world that we don't play Yeah I know this life is fate so take the lead and we'll be great I know there's so much out there for the world to see Beyond all of the hate and this hypocrisy Until then I'm a find a way to fly away See the world and leave this place, see the universe I'm free I just got to get out I just got to go, pack a bag Iced tea, time to hit the road Never really had a home, only had a heart Eyes dart to the board, trying to hit the bulls eye I landed in the storm, matter fact a war Looking trying to find quite what I fight for Found myself two hours in a night course Thinking I should have a job by now Not living with my mom right now I should have a hit song by now That would really be the bomb right now That would really put me on right there, truth So I gotta move along just like you So no matter what we do And that's to, fly away Hey hey it's okay, all this pain is gonna fade Take your time and get your space I know one day you'll find your way Hey, Hey, it's okay, show the world that we don't play Yeah I know this life is fate so take the lead and we'll be great I know there's so much out there for the world to see Beyond all of the hate and this hypocrisy Until then I'm a find a way to fly away See the world and leave this place, see the universe I'm free I'm free, like a butterfly flying to the ocean but the pain too deep So relatable the things we see I'm just hoping they don't haunt my memories, no Keep me above the floor 'cause it creaks Everybody see you but don't understand your strength When I'm feeling weak, that depression finna creep Finna go fill the bowl, waiting 'till them demons leave, yeah Still breathing, while reeling That trauma got me numb to the feeling Exhale, let the smoke hit the ceiling Crying in my kitchen all alone, what's the reason You been fighting on a war so long The pain feel deep, but you coming out strong And if they finna tell you that you doing this wrong Laugh in they face and then move along, yeah Hey hey it's okay, all this pain is gonna fade Take your time and get your space I know one day you'll find your way Hey, Hey, it's okay, show the world that we don't play Yeah I know this life is fate so take the lead and we'll be great I know there's so much out there for the world to see Beyond all of the hate and this hypocrisy Until then I'm a find a way to fly away See the world and leave this place, see the universe I'm free
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Peace 03:41
Passed out on the couch I'm slumped Jam on Bandcamp I'll bump With the homies trying to find a way I know we're great, we gotta find our pace We got to make the space, and then take the space We got to grow together, no falling grace I know it ain't a race but I'm so displaced It don't feel right to be gone from the place that I know as home When in Rome, it's time to get off that cell phone And go explore, man this world is yours I know you know there's so much here in store You gotta take what's yours and get up off the floor Open up the door, and then fly to the sky What's next for you, you gotta find the truth You got to get ready and strap up for the ride I gotta find that vision I want to slow down, but that ain't my mission Let me come back down and get back to the kitchen Whip up some dishes 5 star for the feeling I gotta find that vision I want to slow down, but that ain't my mission Let me come back down and get back to the kitchen Roll up the tree and then break the ceiling, we winning And I'm tired of running, hiding Trying to get back on the groove I'm finding peace, it's you and me Don't let it fall in between the seams don't lose your dreams It is what it is, you can wait and see And maybe in time you'll find your peace And maybe in time you'll find you're free You don't need them trees to go and fly Just jump on the train, baby go and I'll Meet you, let me reach you Show you how to live peaceful We'll fly past the stars and find who we are Whatever you want, the universe is ours Whatever we come to be Just know you've always been free And now I'm back on the Earth again I'm trying to go find my worth again Fuck this hell, I couldn't even tell What they wanted from me and now I'm feeling lonely Need a girl by my side to experience, so the life I live don't feel meaningless But it ain't the move, I got a message too That's telling me I need to go and get the proper tools I don't need the tools to be great My life got purpose, I'm seeing as of late And if they don't see it now, I'll get off the ground And cock back all my fists in their face I'm wondering what's next right here in the race I want to see it now, I got to move with haste I'm wondering if I had scratched the surface, 'cause if I did then it's already worth it And I'm tired of running, hiding Trying to get back on the groove I'm finding peace, it's you and me Don't let it fall in between the seams don't lose your dreams It is what it is, you can wait and see And maybe in time you'll find your peace And maybe in time you'll find you're free You don't need them trees to go and fly Just jump on the train, baby go and I'll Meet you, let me reach you Show you how to live peaceful We'll fly past the stars and find who we are Whatever you want, the universe is ours Whatever we come to be Just know you've always been free Just know you've always been free, yeah

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This album was a very hard process. I went through a lot creating this and wrote about all of it. I had loss, injury, illness, heartbreak, really a lot of shit. I'm just unbelievably grateful for all of the support. I wanted to capture these moments. I wanted to write music and create something to help me feel better when I was feeling low with nowhere to go. The same way that Cudi, Gambino, and Mac's music did for me. Thank you for supporting me and letting me create a body of work that was and IS an extension of myself. Thank you for wanting to step into this journey of my life (that I've catalogued since April/May 2017 when I started this process). Thank you for supporting me. Share this with someone who you think might need to hear this. I want to dedicate this album to Savvy, Layia, Connor, and Mac. I hope you're all at peace. I promise I'ma keep going crazy for y'all.

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released February 12, 2019

I want to thank my mom and my dad first and foremost. Thank you for the history and telling me your stories of wanting to DJ when you were my age dad. Thanks for all of the support mom. I want to thank Rax Trax Studios and the guys there (Rick, Andy, Noam, Charpera, list goes on a bit) for letting me do whatever the fuck I wanted in that studio and encouraging me to experiment with every instrument and every different recording technique while creating this album.

I want to thank my wonderful friends for encouraging me every step of the way, even the times where I was super discouraged and I wanted to end my life and scrap this project.

Thank you to everyone who was my therapist; friends and my actual therapist. ESPECIALLY my actual therapist since 2015. Love you Kenneth. I know you'll be seeing this. I hope San Francisco is treating you well now. Miss you!!

Thank you to Mac Miller for being the biggest life inspiration I could ever ask for throughout my life. Rest in Peace. Most Dope forever. I promise to embody the spirit of your soul while I walk this Earth.

Thank you to everyone's vocals I got to use for this song. Especially 4:00 AM. Liam, Sam, Rhiannon, I love you guys thank you for your contributions.

M x2, I'm grateful for you being in my life for the amount of time you were and i'm incredibly blessed that you messed with the music. We may not be speaking right now, but you influenced a lot of this album and you know this. There's no anger, spite or malice. I wish you the best.

Thanks to everyone who was in my life even during a short period of time during the creation of this album. ESPECIALLY ALEX!!! Griggity/Psoulocybin man you really shaped this for me especially in the beginning stages until you moved back to Ohio. I love you and miss you and you influenced, and motivated me and will continue to do so as long as we're both living and walking this Earth. You told me to keep it pushing and to always keep it real, no matter what, bare soul on page and I did that 100% on this album. Thank you.

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Honest, raw, versatile, & thoughtful: These words are what defines Fanaticus. Based in Chicago, Fanaticus makes what he calls “life music” to express the complex thoughts & emotions most people struggle to communicate, inspired by the highs & lows of it all. His ear for music is impeccable. With a background in classical and jazz, Fanaticus is a true student of the craft and it shows in his music. ... more

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